I am sorry I have doubted you. I can only say, you are right, if you have any desire for this to continue, please be patient, I can be stubborn. Please forgive me. You are so amazing ... this is why I constantly doubt and the reason I push away. You absolutely deserve a life with someone who loves you and who you love. Never should love be one or the other, You should mesh like peanut butter and jelly or macaroni and cheese. It needs to feel and taste good to you.