Aha My first time skydiving my tandem instructor told me he had a previous 'incident', a joke of course, have to say it still made me laugh although I was about to throw myself from a perfectly good plane for the first time in his trust
Sometimes being bipolar is so damn difficult that I can't help hating myself; just wishing I could be like everyone else, that I could have normal days with normal emotions. But I can't be like everyone else so I cry.
Trust me, I know how it feels. I know exactly how it feels to cry in the shower so no one will hear you and waiting for everyone to fall asleep so you can fall apart. For everyting to hurt so bad you just want it all to end. I know exactly how it feels.